i know it's annoying
to start a poem from its scissored-off title but
annoying is a word of many definitions like blue
can mean drowning in well-deep despair
or cerulean blush of a clear autumn sky
annoying the sudden soul-rash of swift
irritation a sneeze (uninvited) a bad habit
(quick-sighted) a euphemism for
you knifed me you bastard a way to bleed
more nicely or a way to flag something
too bright to absorb like my sister
to my mother sometimes at night:
you’re so pretty you give me a headache
yes love can be so damn annoying
more simple more compact
more calmly concrete like chewing a wedge
of sundial if you don’t have the mouth
to chew sun a word even strangers
can relish Koreans I’ve loved
who fear English like a snake
have held this burred word without harm
cracked its sweetness like gold flesh
of chestnuts in the winter 어노잉
uh-no-ing a knowing anointing
tremble of melody belled in the throat
bare ankles tickled crimson by dogweed
soft-bristled, fine-toothed, persistent
you’re annoying: disorder of laughter,
dashed through by grief
you’re annoying: fuzzy frenzy
of restless and reel
you’re annoying: an anointing
of many-threaded hue—
covered well dripping blood
dazzled sky
Esther Ra is the author of A Glossary of Light and Shadow (Diode Editions, 2023) and book of untranslatable things (Grayson Books, 2018). Her work has been published in Boulevard, Rattle, The Rumpus, Korea Times, and PBQ, among others, and received numerous awards, including the Pushcart Prize, 49th Parallel Award, Vineyard Literary Award, and Women Writing War Poetry Award. (estherra.com)